Here’s a moment of transparency. I live for the rush of a deadline, pushing myself until the very last minute and still winning. But I also enjoy peace of mind without the stress of “almost losing it all” at any given moment.
Procrastination for me is a crutch; it fuels those little nagging insecurities that I keep hidden in plain sight. You know what I’m talking about. Those little voices that whisper that we aren’t good, smart, pretty or talented enough to make it—whatever “it” may be. The devil on my shoulder is constantly there, trying to make me doubt my God-given abilities. Perhaps that’s why I’m always making a concerted effort to dust my shoulders off whenever possible to shake those demons.
However, that self-doubting and self-sabotaging behavior ends now, I’m leaving it in 2019. I have too much to do and too many well laid plans for my insecurities to get in the way of me living fully and purposefully in the new year and beyond.
The time is now. I’m no longer waiting on the “right” moment to make things happen. There will never be a right time for anything. You must do it and take that leap. Since 2016, I’ve been waiting for the right time to start my book. Guess what? I haven’t done it. This isn’t to say I haven’t made strides and achieved some of my goals. I have, but for the most part, I’ve been playing it way too safe. Time to take the advice I’m usually so quick to dish out to my clients and friends.
So, as I step into the next decade, this is what I am expecting from myself and those around me:
Consistency + Accountability + Action
I’m not sure if I’m even ready for the intensely dope ride ahead, but let’s go. God’s got me, and I’m on this faith walk heavy. Time to make it happen.
Happy New Year, folks!